Firslty I know this all may make me sound like a prude, well I guess I plead guilty on all counts. I can't change who I am inside, nor do I have any desire too, I simply intend to live my life how I see fit and with whom I choose.
That being said this whole post is but a humble plead for help, I am at my wits end, and am on my knees begging for help here, please any advice for a troubled soul.
So I have recently cut myself off from my old social circle, ironically enough it was I that spearheaded the social networking -and I mean in person I don't use web based social networking- that brought together the two social circles into one much larger one. Ironically aswell I left my friends shortly before a party I was planning with two friends who I am still friends with. The party is tomorrow.
Anyhow I have exited that social circle as it is a cesspool of promiscuity, and only one other person in the circle has interest in the occult and I no longer associate with them as they are part of the cesspool, and her actions are causing pain to a friend of mine as she is sleeping with my friends boyfriend.
I fell like a foreigner and an alien, not because I am not accepted socially, as that is not the case, I am accepted, but I cannot relate to people who are not occultists, I am fairly good at socializing, but I feel no real connection to mundane oriented people. I literally feel like I walk amongst people of half my spiritual prowess, like I am literally an alien soul from a distant place of a metaphysically empowered race and I walk amongst feeble fools, that cannot see the forest before the trees.
I have for over a year longed too associate nearly exclusively with dedicated and passionate occultists.
I simply do not know how and where to find these people, in my area that is.
I just want to find my people and live up too my potential, my relationship with society at large is holding me back.
I am not saying I believe I am an alien that is just what it feels like, and powerfully feels like.
I currently live in the midwest of the USA, but I am more than willing to relocate to where the grass is greener so to speak.
This city has been dubbed std capitol of the region, which is directly reflective of the dominant promiscuous trend here, this place is a cesspool.
So if anyone would be willing to point me in the right direction, I am looking for a city that has a strong social scene of occultists and where monogamy is predominate in that scene, I love Hermetic Kabbalah, the Golden Dawn system, and love the Book of Thoth tarot deck, so I have considered moving somewhere with an OTO lodge, but I have heard that OTO is known for it's debauchery, and assume that the lodges are run amuck with promiscuity, is this a false assumption?
I do not know of any occult orders in my area, which naturally would lead to meeting people, I have looked on the net and found none to exist in these parts but a few wiccan covens and I am personally(no offense meant) not compatible with wicca, or at least the wiccan philosophy these particular covens espouse, but may just join up anyway.
I just want to make it clear that I am not a bigot, a racist or a homophobe,
I just vomit inside over the lack of reverence for love and partnership.
In my book romantic love is 2 people, no more, no less, maybe both are women, maybe both are men, maybe 1 is a man and 1 is a women, whatever.
I was just a groomsmen in a mixed race wedding I assure you I am no bigot.
I am pro love, anti promiscuity. I am a conscientious objector to the war on true love I witness all around me, I see the fall out every where.
Sorry for the rant. I just disassociated myself from dozens of friends over this so please bear with me.
From http://www.occultcorpus.com/forum/showthread.php?t=10854&goto=newpost
